Monday, May 23, 2005
If they were Marilyn Manson, they wore excellent camouflouge. Some had eyeliner on even, while some were wonderfully healthy looking without. Some had rouge, some had none. An old 'au naturel' friend from church showed up and smiled widely at me. A woman with a wonderful smile led the meeting, while a "fundy" looking woman with a knack for funny kickers administrated by her side. Two women were in a small group that I led once at my church a couple of years ago. Several ladies provided ethnic diversity.
Then, the One Woman of the earlier posts showed up late. An open seat was next to me, and she sat down and said hello. Five minutes later, her kids hurried over to her and whispered, "Cody's here," like what they meant to say was "They're making us take the mark of the beast."
I was happy that I ended our last conversation with "okay, okay, okay" instead of "What! Your Perfect Kids started it! Good luck finding someone perfect enough for them to play with! Etc! Etc!" However, it was alright to sit next to her, although I felt no compulsion to invite any more relationship which is okay. I was so glad my friend Nisha recently assured me that awkward relational homeschooling things like this happen.
Cody had an awesome time; I'm so proud of him. He wanted to practice how to be a friend for an hour before we left home. He decided to try to be himself instead of some pumped up cussin' gamer dude who lives on the streets of Barcelona (although he did tell someone that his name was Jake). He loved it and can't wait to start the new co-op school. He made a new friend too!
I signed up to teach creative writing. Yeah! Teaching again.
Oswald Chambers in his meditation today gave me an appropo stern reminder about my worries about such things as homeschooling moms and connections: "'...do not worry about your life ....' Don't take the pressure of your provision upon yourself. It is not only wrong to worry, it is unbelief; worrying means we do not believe that God can look after the practical details of our lives, and it isn't ever anything but those details that worry us."
Okay, I guess I can stop worrying now and just invite the experience to happen. Thank you, God, for blessings and surprises.
Posted by Fieldfleur at 9:07 PM